Where's The Beef?

Let me start of by saying, I love the Keg and Brazilian Steakhouse. I love chicken wing night at Hudsons. I love the ultimate feast at Red Lobster and have no problem eating the entire thing. I hate broccoli and a majority of everything that grows from the ground. So why am I saying this? Because for the past 2 weeks I have been eating a vegetarian diet. For personal reasons I have given up meat, and man, is it ever hard. I feel hungry all the time and I seem to be eating too many carbs and junk food to fill me up. I'm sure that will change as I learn more things to make that I actually enjoy. I'm learning what to add to my food to supplement protein and ordering vegetarian cookbooks which I never thought I would see in my house. So wish me luck...I miss bacon the most.

I have been able to bring myself into the moment and calm my brain occasionally. That NEVER happened before. I hope I can do it more often as I notice the things around me more in that mindset and it is so wonderfully peaceful. I asked someone yesterday if they noticed how beautiful the frosty trees were with the sunrise in the morning. They said no, and I smiled because a year ago I don't think I would have either.

I also managed to calm my brain last class. I feel so awkward and anxious when someone is watching me or I feel like I'm being watched even when I'm not. Most of the time that feeling causes my brain to stop absorbing information because the nerves take over. After about 15 minutes in to last class I calmed myself down and was able to just enjoy my class. I hope I can keep doing that because it's not easy for me.

Anyway, that's what's up with me this week. I'm hoping we all have a strong finish to the horse team and that I can keep increasing my push-ups into the year of the sheep.