Fixing Weaknesses

I'm trying to make some changes so I'm more consistent with my training. I'm doing better than last year but I notice I start to go downhill with push-ups, sit-ups and posting closer to the end of the week. I need to focus on my weekends better. I've also been changing the way I do things. The route I was taking to work was making me consistently angry so I started taking another direction which takes me a bit longer but I'm avoiding people slamming on their brakes while trying to merge on the highway. I'm also changing the time I grocery shop. I can't stand busy grocery stores and would get frustrated maneuvering around people and getting pushed so I go later at night when it's less busy instead of Saturday or Sunday mornings. Small things, but they make a difference to my mind set. I'm not changing what I'm doing, just when I'm doing it. Seems to make a difference so far.

Blogging

Blogging never used to be hard for me. It's not until this past 6 months or so that I've had problems. It's mainly because I have so many different thoughts going through my head, when I write them down it turns out to be a bunch of randomness that wouldn't make sense to anyone but me. I'm finding that lately with anything I seem to write down. I re read some emails I send and then pray that someone would invent an unsend button.

I know to most of you it looks like I haven't made any sort of progress this year. Physically, not so much. Mentally, a tremendous amount, as long as you're not judging me based on my random blogs and confusing emails. :) I'm not sure how to share it with you but I know that I feel a lot different, and the things I value and that are important to me changed. I feel a lot better about myself and the decisions I am making. It won't be easy, but I hope it continues.

Still Here!

I'm a bit frustrated. I was doing so much better and able to start regularly attending my classes. Then, I got hit with a cold/flu that kicked the crap out of me for over 2 weeks. I'm still pretty congested and have to catch up at work with all the stuff that piled up when I was gone. It's pretty discouraging spending such little time at the kwoon this past year with everything that's been going on. It makes it so hard to stay engaged and makes it even harder to want to show up at all. I feel like a disappointment to those who I made deals with this year and haven't been able to keep up my end of the bargain. It sucks, but I suppose overcoming obstacles is part of the never ending journey. Not that I've given up but I'm hoping I've got my bad I Ho Chaun year out of the way and I'm on to better ones. I'm going to have to work hard to gain back my credibility once I feel better again. Sorry guys!

One month - No meat. I'm learning a lot about food. It's still really difficult but I'm hanging in there. I've also been finding really good products that are animal friendly. :)