I Miss You Guys!!!

Hi everyone!

Wow, a lot has changed just over the past few months. This may be a long winded blog, and I apologize for that but I figure I'd give you an update in the life of Lindsay Gibbons.

First off, Josh and I are engaged. Most people aren't all that surprised by this as we've been together almost 7 years. We inherited a beautiful antique ring and I am grateful to be the one that this ring was given to. Just a heads up, we want a lion dance at our wedding, so get practicing! :)

I have finished 2 university courses and am onto my third. Wow! I don't remember ever having to retain so much boring material in my life. Half my course load is done from home, and the other half evenings and alternating weekends. Let me tell you, it's pretty difficult to force myself to read so much legislation and textbook material. It would be great if these lawyers would at least throw in a joke occasionally.

I think I told you before, I started medication for my anxiety problems. I'm not one to take meds and have a hard time even taking pills for a headache, however, I didn't realize up until a couple years ago that my level of anxiety was not normal and that my brain chemistry was "off". The first round of meds worked great, but gave me insomnia to the point I'd go for days without sleeping. The second try, made me a zombie, I couldn't get up and missed work and school, the third try the pills made me super aggressive and irritable. Apparently it's normal to have to try several different things before getting the right thing into your system since everyone reacts differently and unpredictable. So right now, I'm still a guinea pig, my doctor's pretty much my new BFF. I'm back on the first medication since it worked so well and trying to manage the insomnia. I'm also doing cognitive behavioural therapy. These experiences are really difficult to talk about publicly but I am hoping that maybe someone that has had the same issues I have will get help earlier on than I did.
If you are at home, and feel trapped and physically sick by anxiousness and OCD, contact me, I will help you.

Now kung fu...this is where I am sad. I miss you guys, I think about kung fu a lot. Since the end of February when I told the I Ho Chaun team I'd be able to go to Monday morning classes, since I got my car fixed, I've been able to, but I haven't. I've even had my uniform on and ready to go, but just didn't. I don't know why I'm not able to make this step. I don't even practice at home anymore. There's no excuse not to. I could easily bang out some push ups between reading chapters for school, but again, I don't. After being on the sidelines for so long, I'm having a difficult time getting back in the game. I realize the answer is just do it, so why am I not doing it? My only answer I can think of is purely ego. Embarrassment for being so out of shape and forgetting so much? Maybe. Pure laziness? Maybe that too. I have to just show up, days have turned into months and I don't want them to turn into years or even never.

See you at the kwoon!