How Can So Much Awkwardness Fit In Such a Small Body?

I have difficulty juggling more than 3 balls. I try four and I seem to drop one every single time. I kept talking about being able to attend kung fu again and how I wanted to go back, but I never did. The desire was there, but I'd turn into a big ball of anxiousness every time I'd think of getting ready to go. I spent so much time sick and not participating, it just became easy to not participate. Then I started to feel better but school came along and I couldn't juggle work, school a relationship and kung fu. Kung fu had already started disappearing so that seemed to be the thing to neglect. Josh and I were sorting through our stuff and packing our weapons and were both talking about missing it. I thought about what was holding me back and realistically it was just my ego. The fact that I was so far behind and was forgetting the simplest things. I came to realize I needed to just get over it. I had 2 choices. Feel ok being awkward and slow for awhile or regret never going back. I decided for the awkwardness and showed up to last nights I Ho Chaun class. And man, did I ever feel awkward. I'm unable to get low in my stances, I forgot my forms, and what little I did, my legs hurt. I guess I'm just going to have to try to eat my ego and just keep swimming.

See you at the kwoon!