Hi Everyone

Yes, I'm still alive. I haven't been to terribly impressed with myself lately. I was reading through my blogs and I seem to be in the same boat and not making any changes in regards to kung fu. I've been so incredibly lazy with any spare time I have. Basically a sack of flesh staring at the TV or napping. I've also been so unreliable. This is not something I admire in a human being. Up until a couple years ago I made a great effort to ensure that what I did and what I said were the same exact thing. How do you earn anyones respect ever if this isn't the case. I've allowed myself waste way to much time. I've been talking myself into going to class, but still chicken out. When I tried starting kung fu again by showing up to the I Ho Chaun class in November I felt soooo awkward, so I just didn't bother showing up again. I know I need to take that leap and just deal with being a big ball of anxiousness for the first bit, I know I need to just do it, I know people think what on earth is the big deal?...I'm embarrassed about how out of shape I got. I know that's the ego talking and I have 2 choices, either stay the same or do something about it. Now I just need the courage to embrace the fact I suck, peel myself from my groove in the couch and go for it. Easy to say, hard to do.