This blog is going to be an embarrassing one to write and I can feel myself going red as I write it as I don't like this part of myself. I've been battling panic attacks and depression for the past few months which is why you haven't seen me. It is unusual for me to get this bad this time of year, typically it's winter time that I deal with this and usually it doesn't last this long. With the help of a doctor, I am starting to feel better. I'm introverted by nature so I already find it tiring to be around people sometimes, and the past few months I felt it impossible and even called into work "sick" a few times because I couldn't deal with anything at all. No matter how hard and how many times I'd try to change my brain pattern into thinking about everything I was grateful for or think about positive things, it didn't help. To be honest, after the past couple years of being unreliable I would just like to never show up to SRKF again. I'm embarrassed. But, I will, and all I can say is I'm sorry and I'm working on it. One day I'll get a grasp on my defective brain.
See you at the kwoon.
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