Well, it's been a little over 2 weeks now. How am I doing?
I had my first I Ho Chaun class on Friday. I was really nervous and not sure why. Probably because I didn't know what to expect. It was actually alot of fun. I was really happy that some Sifus were so ready and willing to help me. I wasn't expecting that and it was really appreciated. I've always loved the rope dart and admired people that knew how to use one. Now here's the problem. I tried over and over on Saturday to learn a single thing that I was taught to do and I still can't get it. Should I keep trying or should I change to an easier weapon? I love the ropedart but I don't think that a form consisting of me wrapping myself up and hitting myself in the face alot is going to cut it. At the same time too, this is my first weapon and I knew it would be hard with my lack of coordination to be able to conquer it. Maybe I should just keep trying and be ok with sucking this year. I'm not sure what I should do.
I'm struggling with the requirements part too. I'm only managing 20 pushups and 20 situps per day and am finding it hard. My shoulders are sore and I have discovered I have an ab because that hurts too. I'm also forgetting to log everything. I know I'm doing nice things for people, I just can't seem to remember to write them down.
I'm learning very quickly that it's my mind that's going to cause me to fail and possibly at some point quit kung fu. I keep comparing myself to people in a bad way. I'm always hard on myself and feel that I don't pick up on things nearly as fast as I should. I'm frustrated very frequently. Realistically though when I look back at myself 3 years ago, I quit smoking and I don't lay around nearly half as much. I had a job which caused me to throw my body out of wack and have had many problems with my left hip, knee and rib. I'm just fixing that along with my right elbow. I know that physical things are easy to get better at if you just keep trying, it's my brain that's holding me back. Learning to drop the ego is easier said than done. That's my major goal this year. I have to learn to stop over analyzing everything and just be me, at my pace and stop being so darn negative. I need to learn to relax, breath, be patient, work hard and don't give up. Maybe this answers my previous question about the rope dart...Hmmm?
You are on the right track, keep on putting one foot in front of the other and you will be fine. As far as recording goes, different things work for different people; carrying a book, using your phone, sitting down at the end of the day to reflect and record. Keep trying different things until one works for you. I'm a reflector, it also helps me to stay grateful for my life.
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