Yay! I explained to my boss my situation and that I do not want to miss Kung Fu. I see all the people that started with me getting their blue belts or close to it and wonder, if I hadn't missed so much because of injuries, would I be there? I don't want to do that again. He agreed to allow me to temporarily use the work truck.
Now that I've got that sorted out all I have is a sense of fear. I watch the demos, they were awesome...My stomach turned and I wanted to vomit just with the thought of possibly being up there next year. I need to fight it. I absolutely hate being in front of a bunch of people. It's a completely irrational fear that I can't explain, but it's there, loud and clear, telling me to run as fast as I can away from the Kwoon.
I need to beat this...
I will never learn ropedart
I will never get a blackbelt
I will never be brave
...Unless I do.
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