Years In Review

I've been trying to call into the meetings, but it's really hard to hear. By reading the blogs and the sheer volume of them yesterday, I can see I missed a pact to blog. I'm going to try to adjust my work schedule so I'm able to be a part of at least some of the meetings.

The past 2 years have been amazing for me in regards to personal growth. We moved to an area of the south side that we love. We're right behind a ravine and really close to a lot of trails and I love the way it smells here. I find it so calm and relaxing. Josh and I got engaged. It'll be awhile before we can actually have a wedding, but we're slowly planning things out so we know what we want. I finished my course and graduate in June. I'm pretty proud of that actually, because I never had the courage to attend a university. I now am determined to keep growing academically. I also had the opportunity to take the most amazing trip. Josh and I spent Christmas and New Years in Maui and I cannot begin to describe how absolutely awesome this trip was and how relaxed I felt. I didn't even know it was possible for me to be so relaxed. I went whale watching, surfing (with a dog on my board), snorkeling, to a luau, through road to Hana, and so many other things I never thought possible. The trip was a gift, one I genuinely wanted to refuse, but I swallowed my pride an accepted and am so beyond grateful. The generosity of people helping Josh and I while we went through layoffs and trying to get through school has been astounding and I am forever grateful and will pay it forward as soon as we can.

Where I'm struggling now is physically. I spent way to much time not feeling well, then when I felt better I was then working an office job and doing a lot of sitting for school. I was doing a running program 2-3 days a week, but stopped when it started to get colder outside and have done nothing ever since. I've been so lazy physically. It's pretty embarrassing. I tried running forms through my head so that I could at least remember something when I showed up to a class, but the forms are sketchy at best. I'm very much an all or nothing person, so I struggle with balance. I'm either all in or all out. This is going to be my focus for the year of the dog. Balance. I can't do everything but I can at least do something. My goal is to be healthy in body and mind and if I just get over the initial hurdle of embarrassment, anxiousness and awkwardness, I think it can be achieved.

See you at the kwoon.