We had our first meeting as the Snake team. I felt pretty awkward. Everyone was taking their turns sharing their progress so far and all I could feel was my face heat up and my palms getting sweaty as I patiently waited my turn. As you guys probably guessed, words tend to fall out of my mouth when I'm nervous with no thought of trying to form a cohesive sentence. I've always been like that. The faster I talk, the more nervous I am.
I'm still not sure where I fit in. I'm pretty low on the food chain and am uncomfortable asking for help because I don't want to bother anyone. I guess as time goes, I'll find my groove.
I'm trying to learn patience with myself right now, easier said than done. The frustration keeps setting in as soon as I can't immediately do something, but I'm learning. It'll be a slow process.
Have a good week Snake Team!
I started this whole thing as an orange belt, at the end of the row just where you are starting. You may be at the end of the row when we line up, but you are ahead of the pack when you look at reality.
ReplyDeleteAs for not asking for help fearing you are bothering us, well you are, but we LIKE to be bothered!! It gives us an opportunity to show what we know and what we don't. If you look closely, we all bother each other, it's how we get to know each other and bond. So, bother away!! We're expecting it. :)
Even though I'm a Sihing I sometimes feel the same. It is natural and I think as the time goes and we get to know the team more, we will feel more comfortable asking other.
ReplyDeleteOn the other hand I always feel privileged when I'm asked to help. I find that the best way I learn is buy teaching.
I hope this helps...
I wish I would have signed up for part of this team a long time ago. I can totally relate to the red face and sweaty palms but it gets better, trust me. As for help, I've never been so good at asking for it either (always scared to bother someone) but I learnt last year that there is a whole team that is here and you can guarantee that someone has had similar experiences and are more than willing to help! Just ask!
ReplyDeleteThe nice thing about the team also is that you get to know a few people of different levels way better than just in class--and that always helped me figure out who I could ask for help without being afraid I was imposing:)
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