Acts of Kindness

I cannot believe the internal dialogue going on inside my head since starting I Ho Chaun.  1000 Acts Of Kindness, easy peasy right...Well, not if you are actually looking at all the times you could be kind but aren't.  It's easy to open a door for someone when they're right behind you, but when you consciously look around at the world and see all the things you don't do, it's hard to feel like your that good of a person at all.  I'm trying to break that habit of being a judgemental do gooder.  It's hard to want to do nice thing for someone you feel doesn't deserve it or if you're in a hurry.  It's easier to be a jerk and not let that guy with the annoyingly loud hip hop music in front of you in traffic or give that mom with 5 screaming children a dirty look or get mad at that person that walks through that door you opened for them without even acknowledging your existence.  I'm trying hard not to get angry about people not saying thank you, I'm well aware that I'm only harming myself but it's easier said then done.  I've learned that I'm especially not nice when I'm in a hurry so I've made a decision to give myself 15 extra minutes to do anything I need to do.  It's the easiest, most difficult challenge I've ever done.  I'm not sure I like trying to be a better person.