Black Belts are People too

Reading blogs and being more open with others in the kwoon has made me start to realize I'm not alone.  Many of the fears and struggles I am having are shared among many others.  I am not the only one on the verge of vomiting at the thought of public performances.  I'm not the only one that struggles with injuries, doubts and many other obstacles that interfere with training and getting better.  It's still really hard to deal with but talking about it helps a little.  I'm still embarrassed to try new things with my ropedart in a room full of experienced martial artists, I'm hoping I get over that.  I really want to try a neck wrap but am nervous that someone may be watching and I turn into a big chicken.  I hope I don't turn red and pass out the first time Sifu Brinker asks me to show him something.  Eek!